deal

all of us have problems...

I deal with my problems by drowning myself with happiness and laughter

so that I can temporarily forget my problems...

Somehow, I do forget them...

It's like, Siddharta from Siddharta by Herman Hesse pointed out, being a drunkard...

They drink and drink until they throw up...

and their forget their Self....

the thing they're trying to get rid of...

their biggest problem...

But it is only temporary...

for when they wake up the next morning...

their Self is back...

I know one has to face problems in the eye...

but it's as if I'm afraid...

afraid of something I don't know...

maybe...

maybe the fear of not being able to solve the problem...

happiness isn't always the answer to everything...

laughter isn't always the best medicine...

it only gives us a temporary feeling of satisfaction and relief...

but it doesn't solve our problems...

one doesn't gain anymore knowledge...

I can't just escape my problems...

I can't just walk away...

I mean I have to face it...

the truth is the problem will always be there...

even if I walk away from it...

it'll still be there...

even more problems will arise if I do walk away...

what am I to do...

I guess I should just conquer my fear...

and try to solve all my problems in life...

so what if I am not able to solve it...

at least, I tried...

that's already something to be proud of...

From now on, I will never run away from a problem...

I have to face it...

if I didn't solve it...

then, I'll just have to live with it...

Now, the question is...

The big problem is...

well, there are lots...

I can't just write them all here...



for example...

How will I ask her to the prom?

Will she say yes?

In case she is my prom date, what will we do there?

It's hard to talk to her...

When will we be able to talk clearly to each other?...